losing

im confused

there's alot of mess cluttered in my head

i cant think straight

feeling like losing the other half of me today

cant exactly explain why or what

but what I really know, is that

i miss you so much


you keep a distance from me today

i may know the reason why you do so

and yah, i realize it today

that we myb can only be like this -- friends

Dear friend, i heart you

insober

my head spinning . my legs shaking . my body sweating like hell .

yea, terrible fever huh ?

Bernama News - Friday, July 17

KUALA LUMPUR, July 16 (Bernama) -- Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM) Campus in Alor Gajah, Melaka has been closed for nine days effective immediately following the outbreak of the Influenza A H1N1 at the campus since last week.

My beloved UiTM was announced to close since Thursday . So, that particular thursday night, my bro picked me up at my college . Its hell I tell you .

How do you imagine someone who has extremely headache to pack her things up that instant ?? A LOT of things . Including those desktop set I just brought a week ago .

Sumpah, aku mcm nak tumbang je time tuh, tp God knows betapa bertahan je aku mengemas sume brg, sbb takot nanti abg aku dtg marah sbb x siap kemas lagi .

Before my bro came, I managed to sleep for an hour I think, tak tahan gile kot pening . Rasa mcm taknak bgn je smpai esok tghari . Dah la sejuk mengigil . Arghh shyt =.=

Suddenly, my handphone rang . Its a sign from my bro, he's arrived . So, feeling seriusly insober, I go transfered all my stuff from my room to the car . I can't believe how I did it, but I... climb the fourth floor, THREE times, mase tgh pening tuh . Sumpah insober . (Bile bgn pagi esok nyer kat rumah, tgk brg aku byk GILA, bru aku teringat nak mengira berapa kali aku ulang alik tangga) =.=

Masuk dalam kereta, tak lama, 10minit je, aku terus muntah . Fortunately my bro sempat berhenti kat Petronas . Kalau tak, mmg habis kereta bau 'perfume' baru . Telan panadol, terus pengsan(tidur) sampai rumah, mmg x sedar .

Terribly, the day after pon, stil not really recovered .

O Lord, Help Me !

Oh ya, I got two weeks++ of holiday . HAHA . Envy me ! :)

im done .

im done with him

yea, at last, after all the trial i've tried to forget bout him..

only now that i hv the solid true reason to do so

thanks hunn :)

i'm done with love, for good

lets say, GIVING UP is the word

Oops, a slight tiny waterdroplet come rolling down my cheek .

Shyt, I better go find a tissue . Gtg ! :']

*******

Hey, being gay is much more fun than being hurt .

So lets be gay ppl ! :D

*duhh, im joking mom !

double-U H Y ?

Did you know ?

'Why' is a WH-question .

I know-lah, smartee pants !

Topic : Why HE ?

Why do I like him ?
Cause for me, he's different and unpredictable . And and, he has a pair of hawt ass :)

Why do you STILL like him altho he treated you like tr-ASS-h ?
Cause my friend said 'the harder you get something, the harder you'll lose it'

Why do you think you even have a chance with him ?
No, I never did think I hv the chance . But crushing is not a sin aite ? :)

Why wont you like any other guys ?
Cause he's too near to let go off .



Topic : Why UiTM instead of Maktab (IPGM) ?

Why do I stick with TESL in UiTM ?
Cause I can't deny, UiTM di hatiku . Sewiusly, no bluff .
Cause I can't betray my friends
Cause TESL is the only thing I hv passion in and I believe I can do it !

Why did I rejected IPGM's offer ?
Cause I don't think IPGM is a place for me, I wont be able to fit in there .

Why did I rejected a once in a lifetime future-work oppurtunity as a teacher ?
Cause I believe I live for the present, not the future . Let me be happy in present while I stil can .
We may plan the future ahead, but what lies in future is already planned and set by Him .
I may accept the offer, but who knows, I still may not be a teacher .
I may reject the offer, but who knows, I may be a teacher someday :)

cerita muffin

29th June 09

He said his birthdays sucks . It is the dumbest birthday ever, as it is the MMS week .

She pity He . So She made a plan .

6th July 09

MMS finally over . Gave He a muffin, for a belated birthday present, hoping to cheer him up . Silently, secretly, put into He's locker :)

He found the muffin . Proudly He said 'Muffin Amir kot!' .

She was sad, but she ignored her feeling, blaming herself for not leaving a 'To : M***' card aside with the muffin .

He found out the truth . He know She was the one gave it to him . He shouted ; 'Bodohhh ! Aku dah sakitkan hati dia' .

He IM-ed She .

7th July 09

3am . She cant sleep . Thinking what will happen tomorrow btwn She and He .